When life it’s hard, it can be useful to move your focus; and completely focus on that.
This morning I was almost going to ask a friend to take me to A&E because I was panicking about the fact I can’t continue like this. I was scared, frustrated, desperate.
Then I receive a friend message about making a logo. Not just “a logo”, a logo for something important, I care for. My first reaction was “I can’t”. I breath some fresh air, and thought about it. Fucking OCD took away everything from me: activities, job, friends (not because they are not there but because OCD tells me I can’t see them now). I already let off a lot of things. And it made and still makes me suffer so much becauseI strongly wanted to do those things. Even with this specific friend, more than once in the last few months.
Not now, not this time: I will make that logo, focus on the cause I believe in (it’s about animal rights), focus on something I can do: my design. Yes, I have a lot of feelings in my head telling me “no, say no, you are not well, you can’t concentrate, you don’t deserve this opportunity, blah blah blah”, but fuck it. I will make this logo.
And you know what? Since I started focusing on this, I’ve felt a little better. My obsessive-compulsive mind was less intense, still present, but an annoying noise that I was able to leave “behind the scenes,” as my psychology says.
You can focus on a book, or watching outside the window, breathing, feeling the fresh air on your face, listening to the birds, or sensing the weight of your body on the bed: be present.
I know, this don’t always work immediately or well or at all. It’s ok, but then tray again, or try something different. Because even a minute or two of wellbeing can make a difference in your nervous system.
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